eileen’s blog

really, it's something i am very passionate about, it breaks my heart to hear something like that.

[20:56] hyperbutazn: y'know what i've noticed about myself??
[20:56] hyperbutazn: i'm VERY conservative... >.>
[20:56] amy ng: eh?
[20:57] hyperbutazn: i was just telling my mom about how much i'm afraid the next generation's gonna be whitewashed and oblivious to our own cultures and traditions
[20:58] hyperbutazn: and then my already whitewashed sister butts in and says to me" if that's what you care about, then how come you dont' try to do it yourself?"
[20:58] hyperbutazn: look who's talkign!!
[20:58] hyperbutazn: that really hurt my feelings
[20:58] amy ng: im americanized! (woot twinkies/bananas!) *peacesigns* :]
[20:58] amy ng: ^^v
[20:58] hyperbutazn: i'm trying everything i can, lending my freetime to stay with my family so i coudl charish the times i have with them and that's what they think of me?
[20:59] hyperbutazn: that really hit deep.
[20:59] hyperbutazn: haha amy's "americanized" xP
[20:59] amy ng: ah
[20:59] amy ng: its difficult
[20:59] amy ng: to
[20:59] hyperbutazn: but yeah, that jsut really smashed my feelings
[20:59] amy ng: balance american cultures and chinese cultures
[21:00] amy ng: its hard to do that
[21:00] hyperbutazn: no it's not the balancing, it's the holding on to those ties that are hard
[21:01] hyperbutazn: everyone wants the new and the better, they don't want to stay home, they don't wanna stay with their parents, they don't want to learn the traditions, they dont' want to get involved with teh culture
[21:01] hyperbutazn: that's what i'm afraid of. looka t mr. ko
[21:01] hyperbutazn: he's a 3rd generation chiense
[21:01] hyperbutazn: and he's OBLIVIOUS to everything that has to DO with being chiense
[21:01] hyperbutazn: i jsut dont' want the next generation to be like that
[21:01] hyperbutazn: our childrem
[21:02] amy ng: oh i see
[21:02] amy ng: uh oh lol
[21:02] hyperbutazn: look at us now, most of us already dont' wanna follow out parents
[21:02] hyperbutazn: don't wanna be like them
[21:02] hyperbutazn: dont' wanna listen to them
[21:02] amy ng: aiya thats me =(
[21:02] hyperbutazn: we listen to our friends, the friends who also dont' listen to their parents
[21:02] amy ng: i even told my parents
[21:02] amy ng: tha
[21:02] amy ng: that*
[21:03] hyperbutazn: so we have limited knowledge about what we are and where we come from
[21:03] amy ng: hmm
[21:03] hyperbutazn: then what about our children??
[21:03] hyperbutazn: culture and traditions are passed down from generation to generation
[21:04] hyperbutazn: if we stop learning it, the whole chain is broken
[21:04] hyperbutazn: our childrem would be oblivious
[21:04] hyperbutazn: not only that, but when we finally realize that, our children would be like us right now
[21:04] hyperbutazn: don't want to sustain the past, want to live int he present and future
[21:05] amy ng: you should write an essay to argue your point. XD
[21:05] amy ng: good points
[21:05] hyperbutazn: don't wanna associate with the our ties and original country
[21:05] hyperbutazn: i dont' think i'll be ablt to write an essay about this
[21:06] hyperbutazn: becuase writing essays is taking out a lot of feelings and emotions that i have about this
[21:06] amy ng: and do you know what i hate about most? chinese people who undermine chinese values and cultures ( they are TOO EMBARASSED .. >_> .. they're afraid of what people think of them)
[21:06] hyperbutazn: i know! that really irritates me
[21:06] amy ng: if you have strong opinions about something. write about it (my suggestion to you)
[21:07] hyperbutazn: jsut ANY person dissing their own culture annoys me
[21:07] amy ng: chinese person " omg stop being so asian .. you're so cheap.. ugh chinese people are so dirty.. "
[21:07] hyperbutazn: do they have ANY idea how the older generations felt about these traditions?
[21:07] hyperbutazn: holding on to their traditions is holding on to their LIFe
[21:07] hyperbutazn: their lifetyle
[21:07] hyperbutazn: their whole family history
[21:07] amy ng: yeah
[21:07] amy ng: i pity them
[21:08] amy ng: hating on themselves
[21:08] amy ng: sad people
[21:08] amy ng: XD
[21:08] hyperbutazn: i mean, i say i dont' like sf's chinatown cuz it's dirty, but it doesn't mean i'm dissing chinese people
[21:08] hyperbutazn: i'm just saying our chinatown really sucks
[21:08] amy ng: i know what you mean
[21:08] hyperbutazn: it doesn't have a good impression of the real china
[21:08] hyperbutazn: it really hits me deep
[21:09] hyperbutazn: how those people could do that to themselves
[21:09] hyperbutazn: deprive themselves of themselves
[21:09] hyperbutazn: and the way my sister just said that to me? it really hurt
[21:09] hyperbutazn: my own SISTER
[21:09] hyperbutazn: i'm so sorry i'm ranting on about this to you
[21:10] hyperbutazn: i bet your'e like "shit eileen, you stupid"
[21:10] hyperbutazn: i'm SO sorry
[21:10] amy ng: huh? nah
[21:10] hyperbutazn: i just didn't feel comfortable saying this to anyone else
[21:10] amy ng: girls rant. I LOVE TO RANT.,
[21:10] amy ng:
[21:10] amy ng: nah vent them
[21:11] amy ng: lol
[21:12] amy ng: i never listen to what my brother says. in my mind: " xPP your opinion doesnt matter to me" XD
[21:12] hyperbutazn: thankss amyy
[21:12] amy ng: npp
[21:12] amy ng: lol
[21:12] hyperbutazn: i think imma go drink abotu bwol of soup to calm down enough to concentrate on hw >.>
[21:12] amy ng: yeah i gotta go
[21:12] amy ng: bye
[21:12] amy ng: lol
[21:12] amy ng: gn
[21:13] hyperbutazn: g'night amy sleep more

i was so bored i make an online purikura...

[21:56] : figuring out how i should do my ersonal statement...can i c urs tmr??
[21:56] : OH SHIT
[21:56] : hmm?
[21:56] : i forgot to write it!!!
[21:57] ms: but its not due tmr right
[22:06] mdas: hope ur okay...
[22:06] eiin: it's cute 2mr
[22:06n: for me
[22:06] en: FRICK!!!
[22:06] as: cute??
[22:06] ein: i think imma pull an all nighter tonight
[22:06] n: *due
[22:06] nn: sorry, tyopo
[22:06]n: *typo
[22:0as: good luck
[22:06] : i had a typo on a typo... how sad
[22:06] s: hahah
[22:07] ms: funny
[22:07] e man, imma go homocidal if this keeps up
[22:07] mos: gloria said something alike
[22:07] enn: frick, i dont' think i can hold it anymore. i HATE SCHOOOL!!!
[22:07] ms: dont worry
[22:07] eil: no
[22:07] en: i got a FUCK load of hw
[22:07] mas: everyone is going through this thing
[22:07] e: not even a SHIT laod, a FUCk load
[22:08] nn: no, you dont' understand. it's a FUCK load of CRAP
[22:08] mds: remember about the kareoke at the end of this year
[22:08n: 4 assignments EACH class
[22:08] n: i hope i don't die before karaoke T-T
[22:08] ein: that'd SUCK
[22:08] en: P
[22:08] mdas: you wont
[22:08] : *xP
[22:08] : thankss
[22:08] m: dont worry
[22:08] mas: haha
[22:08] eileensinn: man, those people are SO god damn lucky i'm nice
[22:09] mas: eileen = nice ??
[22:09] ms: haha jk
[22:09] n: Eileen 穂琳 F*CK YOU! so i'm STILL fricking doing ALL the work!! i have a life outside of school too! i have a shit load of hw too! whyt eh f*uck am i don't YOU share of the work!?!? and when i ask you guys to do the TINYEST thing, you think it's helping ME!? it's not helping me, it's fricking doing your share! i HATE ALL OF YOU!!! you gusy are SO damn lucky i'm nice!
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[22:09] m: you should just tell te teacher also
[22:09] e: the teacehr's gonna be like "why didn't you tell me before" or "how can i help you?"
[22:09] n: i dont' know how the hell to respond to that!
[22:10] mas: tell the teacher with laura
[22:10]n: if i say, kill them, that won't happen
[22:10]nn: dude, laura's pissing me off too
[22:10]s: how?
[22:10]: she said she'd write the paragraph, i ended up writing her an example
[22:10] en: all she diud was change the words and sent it back to me
[22:10n: then guess what
[22:10] ds: mm?
[22:11]n: she said "oh, can you fix it up? i hope this helps"
[22:11] e: what the FUCK?!/
[22:11] en: help me with WHAT!?!?@
[22:11] en: it's YOUR job too!
[22:11] enn: sorry....
[22:11] ms: clam down, i know you're pissed off but you know getting mad just makes you piss off even more
[22:11] ein: i'm getting really irritated...
[22:11]n: sorry yuruie
[22nn: *yurie
[22:12]das: no no0
[22:12]n: i just dont' think i can do hw at the moment in this stage
[22:12] mas: dont get irritated just cuz of them
[22:12] ms: theyre just stupid
[22:12]n: i mihg tlike rip it into pieces wiithout even noticing
[22:12]n: then my english teacehr wants TWO essay TOMORROW
[22:12nn: and she assigned it TODAY
[22:12] ms: r u done
[22:12] mdas: ?
[22:13] : AND she's gonna give us a long ass vocab test
[22:13: what a bitch
[22:1: hmm...
[22:13] n: no, cuz i STILL have 8 more pages worth of notes to take for my ap class
[22:13n: and 2 sections of math
[22:14] n: AND the god damn commecial
[22:14] as: TRY to organize your schedule
[22:14]n: watch me just skip school 2mr to screw them up
[22:14] : i know you are but you know what i mean
[22:14] as: you know you dont want to do that
[22:1n: man, watch me skip that CLASS to screw 'em over
[22:14] ms: to them
[22:14] en: at the moment i do
[22:15]s: well
[22:15s: you and gloria are saying something similar right now
[22:15] ms: did you know that im kinda stressed out too/?
[22:15] as: cuz of the collee thingies
[22:16] s: college*
[22:16] en: shit, i'm MORE stressed, i didn't even START
[22:16] s: ME TOO
[22:16n: i don;t have time to even TOUCh the site
[22:16]s: you're not the only one
[22:16] m: clam down and think what you can do
[22:17] s: it might be hard but try
[22:17] s: ill make you feel better too
[22:17] s: it'll**

no yurie, you dont' understand. my life aint as easy as yours

F*CK YOU! so i'm STILL fricking doing ALL the work!! i have a life outside of school too! i have a shit load of hw too! whyt eh f*uck am i don't YOU share of the work!?!? and when i ask you guys to do the TINYEST thing, you think it's helping ME!? it's not helping me, it's fricking doing your share! i HATE ALL OF YOU!!! you gusy are SO damn lucky i'm nice!

thompson's a dumbass. at the beginning of the period she talks about how important it it to get 9.5 hours of sleep per night and then inthe middle of the period she's like "what's more important than english?" then at teh end of the period we tells us in college we need to get teings done even if we gotta stay up all night. what the hell's WRONG with taht woman!?!?

Ladies, Read Only The First Part – Men, The Rest

A Woman was out golfing one day when she hit the ball into the woods. She went into the woods to look for it and found a frog in a trap. The frog said to her, “If you release me from this trap, I will grant you three wishes.”

The woman freed the frog, and the frog said, “Thank you, but I failed to mention that there was a condition to your wishes. Whatever you wish for, your husband will get times ten!”

The woman said, “That’s okay.” For her first wish, she wanted to be the most beautiful woman in the world.

The frog warned her, “You do realize that this wish will also make your husband the most handsome man in the world, an Adonis to whom women will flock.”

The woman replied, “That’s okay, because I will be the most beautiful Woman and he will have eyes only for me.”

So, KAZAM-she’s the most beautiful Woman in the world!

For her second wish, she wanted to be the richest woman in the world. The frog said, “That will make your husband the richest man in the world. And he will be ten times richer than you.”

The woman said, “That’s okay, because what’s mine is his and what’s his is mine.”

So, KAZAM-she’s the richest woman in the world!

The frog then inquired about her third wish, and she answered, “I’d like a mild heart attack.”

Moral of the story: Women are clever. Don’t mess with them.

Attention female readers : This is the end of the joke for you. Stop here and continue feeling good.

Male readers, continue reading….

… … … … … …

The man had a heart attack ten times milder than his wife

Moral of the story: Women think they’re so smart. Let them continue to think that way and just enjoy the show.

PS: If you are a woman and are still reading this; it only goes to show that women never listen!

at school today during 3rd period, i went to a VAPA assembly. this is what we saw:

CIMG1957

it was good :)
i really liked the little intro story at the beginning when they told us what the song was gonna be about before we actually heard the piece. thing is, it was weird cuz there were 3 stories but 2 actual songs. hmm.
oh wellz, i recorded the 2nd one [cuz the first one, i used to take a decent photo but it STILL turned out blurry.]

CIMG1961

so yeah...

i'm PRETTY sure this is it...
oh wellz. if it's not,. try the bottom one. but i'm quiet sure it's this one/


and now here's the choir :)

yeah... so there you go...

CIMG1964

now the audio imma insert is their second song too.
it was relatively fine... but not the best.
it was a good try though...
but it wasn't very good
if you WANT to hear it, i'd advise you to turn up the volume in the time provided. if not, then... i guess you could hear them sing however soft they were

it's a good song. i think it's a church song.
anyways, nanjo was on the piano :)
i guess she was a typical azn kid at one point.
[if yall know what i mean]

Shiet

shit, kill me now, it's OVER 14 hours!!! >.<
what the fuck is HAPPENING?!!?!